February 2012
3 posts
Dreams of Falling Out
I had a dream that I was driving away away. I drove into a reoccurring dream. I drove into a familiar apartment complex with horrible parking. The enclosed housing towered and leaned over me while I cruised to find a spot. I came to see a friend that my heart would be glad to see. It was always tricky walking up those uneven and treacherous stairs. Shifty, birdy eyes peeked out from curtains to...
I had a Dream of Pulling Teeth
The week after a visit to the dentist, I fell asleep in the middle of the week and climbed a cylinder tower with a straight staircase to the garden rooftop. I found a former acquaintance waiting for me. He was so arrogant that he didn’t talk. He just stood there with a strong jaw line and crossed arms. He pursed his lips and chin. I didn’t care. He led me to his pretentious loft with...
A Dream about Family
I went to sleep with a crook in my eyebrows. I went to sleep with a miscommunication looming over me. I spoke too soon and with a sharpened tongue. Someone said to me “Hurt people hurt people.”
I woke up and she was in a big tulle dress. She has a round face with big pores. She’s wearing too much glittery powder on her eyelids and too much clumpy mascara on her lashes, but she...
December 2011
2 posts
A Nap
I had a dream that I was not as understood and not as wanted to be understood and then I fell asleep.
A Dream of Propaganda
I fell asleep after grazing over the faces and figures of beautiful women.
I woke up in a dream that Memphis functioned underneath a propaganda machine. The machine was fine tuned and private and vulgar. The machine stifled confidence and dignity, but it was beautiful so the city pressed on to toil quietly.
November 2011
6 posts
A Dream of Lobsters in my Backyard
I had a dream that I was standing with my nose pressed against the glass. I was looking into an aquarium that held my childhood backyard inside. There was a channel of water passing through it, rich with things that the sea likes to eat. There was a group of disfigured lobsters scavenging for food. Their tails had been torn off and eaten by rich people so they walked on their front claws. They...
You Should Date An Illiterate Girl by Charles...
Date a girl who doesn’t read. Find her in the weary squalor of a Midwestern bar. Find her in the smoke, drunken sweat, and varicolored light of an upscale nightclub. Wherever you find her, find her smiling. Make sure that it lingers when the people that are talking to her look away. Engage her with unsentimental trivialities. Use pick-up lines and laugh inwardly. Take her outside when the...
Frolicking and Talking to Myself
I had a dream that I came dressed in my favorite outfit. White t-shirt tucked into blue jeans tucked into cowboy boots. And my friend lamented, “I wish you were a little bit taller. You would be tall enough to be a model.” And I pranced away in pity, repeating, “I wish I were smarter, I wish I were funnier, I wish I was skinnier, I wish I was richer, I wish I were...
Wisdom Teeth and Quesadillas
I had a dream that I walked into a school cafeteria and sat at a table. A man who spoke a language I did not completely understand began to speak to us. I was obliged to smile and nod and laugh. I found another wisdom tooth poking out while he spoke. The old man talked about men and their tendency to search after girlfriends even while being married, “If a man has enough energy to lift a...
Superficial Summer
I had a dream that I met a reluctant leaf. The leaf was implored to become a flower and then a bud and then a fruit. It shouted at the vine out of exhaustion and fear, “I only wanted to be a leaf, but you implored me so I became a flower and then a bud and now I am a fruit but I am so strained that I am about to fall! Why have you done this to me?” The fruit fell to the ground and...
Illusionists
I had a dream that I lived in a strong house. It was a safe home. I was relieved to come home, not afraid. Home felt like trust and stability. There was no one building mansion wings when the kitchen was left empty. This home was my foundation. My future wasn’t dependent on the window makers or the mansion wing builders. It lent me the freedom to risk fearlessly, without the condemnation of...
October 2011
1 post
Reoccuring Dreams and By-products
I suddenly realized that I had been having a reoccurring nightmare. I hadn’t been able to remember them after waking up in the morning, but for some reason, the sound of unlocking my front door abruptly brought them to my consciousness.
I am in a backyard. someone far away cries out, someone that I have lost and been searching worriedly for. The someone is crying out to be found. I grip the...
June 2011
2 posts
Concerts & Tsunamis
My mind sinks into sleep hesitantly.
My mind wandered into the beach. There were large crowds, but I was slipping in and out of consciousness and I saw my body sleeping in the fetal position. Was I experiencing an earthquake? I stood on the beach with legs bracing me, and then, far off in the ocean, I saw a wave. It was violent and powerful, and it screamed towards us. I thought of the earthquake...
Cats Asleep like Donuts
I dreamt that I was forcefully taken. It was someone I knew; it was someone whose company that I enjoy. We were in the backseat of a car on the way to somewhere and he opened a small jar while the car rocked from the uneven road. The jar smoked thick white billows and filled the car and made my limbs droop with heaviness. I was confused, my friend looked helplessly regretful but it was too late.
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August 2010
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“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for...”
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June 2009
4 posts
A Dream of Politics & Morality
While writing in my journal, before washing up for bed, thoughts of Erich Mancow Muller and his water boarding experience floated into the room from somewhere. My thoughts drifted to POW and the morality of interrogations. Does the potential safety of any number U.S. citizens warrant the cruel and unusual torture of any number of aliens.
I think about the people I love, about them being tortured...
“It seems, in fact, as though the second half of a man’s life is made up of...”
– Fyoder Dostoeysky
“Integrate what you believe in every single area of your life. Take your heart to...”
– Meryl Streep (via kari-shma)